As my life goes on my emotions change from day to day, one day being in a relationship feels so right and then next I long for the freedom to go and do whatever I want.

To travel to India and live in total bliss or fly off with Dr’s without Borders and do something to help those I see suffer and in need.

Now having a grown independent son and lost my youngest, I feel my life is torn more than ever. I have a husband that loves and lives for me, which to some is wonderful but is a great responsibility to know someone depends on you so much, four dogs I adore and family I am very close to but yet I feel that time is passing and I must start doing something or I shall be left behind.

How many of us run this rollacoaster, from living the responsible and caring life to the one longing for freedom. How much are we to give in to. I am not suggesting we leave our families, but we need to find ways to fill the needs we have, even in a smallest way until the time is ours to take the bigger leaps.

Where would you be, what would you be doing if time was on your side or when you do have the time?

I urge you to at least look at your life and come up with a plan, if you want to learn to dance for one day you will Tango in Argentina, take lessons now, if you want to become a photographer to pay your way for travel begin now.

Because if we do not practice what we want for the future, we will not suddenly begin doing what we want in the future.

I ask you to create a list of 20 things you will work towards and take steps to enroll in those classes with or without your partner, you never know where life will take you or what curve balls life will throw, so live.

Begin now, I have started my list to share, there maybe a few ideas, some may be dreams, but dreams must start somewhere.
Meditate in India, live in Mexico for 6 months, learn to speak Spanish, take dancing lessons, travel alone to Greece, Spain and Portugal. Teach English in an orphanage, learn to scuba dive, ride a horse across the ocean.

To sing, the scariest thing on my list; and yet the on I must do the most, so let me tell you it maybe not easy but there are some things we must do to feel alive.

The rollacoaster will keep coming at you but be ready to take at east some for a ride.